i told myself i’m going stop having distractions (looking for food, watching TV, eye the bed, switching on the PC, smsing people, etc), dig out my bundle of notes and REALLY STUDY. but guess what..? i read 3 pages and officially gave up. my paper is on wednesday, mind you!

little me arent really scared huh.

i’m soooo dead and i’m just beginning to feel the heavy waves of stress.. YOU DESERVED IT!

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due to the heavy downpour today, i decided to cook YH and me lunch. last week, i cooked us curry maggie mee with crab sticks and hotdogs. ended up that the hotdogs arent even fully cooked! thank goodness none of us ran for the toilet. so this time, i decided to cook mian xian with hotdogs (again!!) and an egg. YES!!! YOU READ IT CORRECTLY!!! i can now cracked an egg without shells dropping into the egg white/yolk!! it’s absolutely perfecto! *proud* i was amazed. well, perhaps i’m just gifted in cooking and i only realized it till now =)

this time, once the water starts boiling, i threw in the nicely-cut hotdogs to prevent any uncookness.. and it turns out terrific!! i think my cooking skills arent very bad actually but if you asked my dear brother, he’ll sure beg to differ. but i still think i’m improving! even if they’re easy to cook stuff.

taste very nice!!! of course.. the bak kua was a nice addition..

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re-read my morning enty and boy, dont i sound cheesy?! =)

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i’m reading someone’s blog and envy envy envy!

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hehe, i just spread manuka honey all over my face just now! any effects? well, i’ll only see them in the morning!

Hello you, i dreamt of you today. it was your voice that i hear.. your smile that i see.. it was you sitting close beside me, the warmth and happiness that i feel.. it was then that i realized that i do missed you. despite the fact that we dont talk much anymore, and oh how i missed those times. we always want something that we dont have, we often miss something that we no longer have. all these talks about cherishing and stuff, is all really bullshit huh?

you’re a chance that i have let go. perhaps.. you do miss me a little too?

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back to reality. the paper is a day away.. worry and feeling sick with fear.. doing nothing whatsoever over it.. for the umpteen time, i do feel that i might be better off not studying.

the grass is always always greener on the other side. i bet i will miss studying if i choose to drop out!

finicky fickle minded you. if only i’m smarter.. then perhaps i wont feel like a loser..