.. this week of late night sleepings had disrupted the complexion i had been trying desperately hard to keep in tip-top condition. now, i’m suffering from heavy eyebags that resembles a panda, flaky patchy blemished skin and darn these oil seeds! (at least thats what i think they are) how not to be depressed you tell me?!

.. i’m pleased to announce that i have not been buying clothes for the past two months! a broken record, really. ok lah, not cuz i dont want to spend but i’m too broke after investing in better facial products due to my gulliability. and now i feel like going to get some new moisturiser cuz i suspect it’s my new moisturiser that is making my pores cloggy. sigh, how not to spend money like that? and this is considered a health care, a necessity.. right?

.. i couldnt really get along with her. everything she did, said, just infuriated me more. this is not how sisterhood is suppose to be like. blood is always thicker than water, they say. but so what? does it means anything or just a stupid consoling theory? we all need to grow up, before things get worse.

.. my cousin, who is getting married dropped by with his finance (HAHA, fiancee i mean) to offer joss sticks to our ascendants. and barely stepping in for 5 minutes, they are off in a whiff, leaving behind an unaddressed wedding invitation (quite rude i think) and cake. hmm. cousins huh?

.. Mum got a new job which i think suits her more. she seems happier, i hope this is her turning point for the better. :) she’s happy = i’m happy.

.. i miss you all the same. it’s been a long time since i last write you something; but it doesnt means that there goes a day without me thinking about you. the words are just kept in my heart, unspoken. how do you define yearning in words?

.. i always feel misunderstood. i crave for acceptance, i crave for understanding, i crave for people to remember little good things about me, i crave for people to notice me. but.. how come things always turns out so differently from how you expected it? for once, i wished for predictability.

.. at least, give me a sign? anywhere, even a flutter of leaves, a stirring of the wind? all i have is nothing, nothing. or perhaps i just choose to overlook how fullfilling my life actually can be - if i ever wanted it.