i reckon today i’m a happier girl. and why shouldnt i be? it’s a friday!

came home with happy buys: a new cleanser that seems pretty good, and new shampoo and conditioner! - no clothes, believe it or not :)

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i think i’m having something like a writer’s block, i dont have much to update except for the same old stuff about school - i dont feel like writing about the food i eat, or the bubble teas i sinned over, the lectures and tutorials that seems to drone on forever, the friends i mixed with - i will definitely bore myself to tears. same old, same old. life is still like that. those fears are still trapped inside me. i dont like this kind of life; i’m just pacing and pacing in circles, without any improvement, without any ideas to improve. jealousy and envy seems to be circling around me everytime - i’m sick and tired of all this. crazily, i keep visualizing myself working in an office, earning some money at least, leading a life perhaps not perfect but just borderly satisfactory, that would get me by. at least i will be following procedures of my job scope and not throwing myself at the mercy of those graphs, functions, blah blah blah. all week, i’ve been obsessing over _ + _ = _, it’s rather crazy. indeed, i’m not the studying type.  

i’m such a disappointment. though you didnt exactly say those words, Mum, i know i have let you down again.

oh stupid me.

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today, i realize how some people can be such turn-offs. they seems rather amazing, well, he seems to be that way. a friend i could rely in those small classes which i cant click much. but a guy who scraped over tiny issues like $1.50? you’re a real turn-off, disgusting.

seems like i need more skills on judging a character!

**i need to learn to grow to like my environment. but some people just sucks dont they.