1. school is growing much much more tougher,
2. i’m back to contacts for the next 2 weeks so yay, but cleaning of lens took ten minutes longer than usual!!!,
3. i’ve been staying back in school to mug even though i have no more classes in the afternoon, but why is it that i feel no progress has been made?,
4. i’m decidedly happier today because i bought a top for 12 bucks with Jas,
5. i still feel left out in school,
6. though i still miss Z, but today, i sat on the bus, trying to conjure up past memories of both of us. but then, i realized, nothing much is flowing into my brain. it feels like i have forgotten a whole big chunk of our memories. is that a good thing? perhaps this is the ultimate proof that it was just a crush. i still hope to meet someone like him though. how are you, Z?
7. tired. i really really hate the sickening feeling of being left behind in a group of people. sometimes it makes me wonder if there’s anything wrong with my character, appearance, personality? am i not smart enough? not cheerful enough? not pretty or cute enough? not fun-loving enough? not lovable enough?

i shall not let these annoying tiny matters get me down. my life is perfect in the way i think it is. well, probably not that perfect, but i’m just about that contented, for now. yep.