school has finally begun. a wide variety of friends, ranging from different countries. many funny accents that i’m not used to. econs was our first lecture. and we have homework! i’ve finally picked my modules, deciding the ones with the least maths. my first lunch at SIM was lemon chicken cutlet rice. the earliest i have to wake up was 5 freaking am in the morning. i had my forehead sunburnt during the orientation last friday. it was hilarious, with lousy buffet meals, outdoorsy games that  have me freaked out, and in the end i didnt dare try any (yeah, loserish me, ha!) hmm, what else. 

however, i’m glad i have my friends with me. 

SIM is more about paying highly ridiculous school fees than anything else. we paid 7k barely two months ago, and now, another 1.3k is required. i dont know what am i getting myself into, am i know is, i barely knew yet. 

my shopping urge is dying down, which is great. i havent been talking to much people outside of my comfort zone lately. i wonder why. perhaps.. , i’m just a complicated person. i need more than what other people need. when i’m uneasy about something, i run, i seek a hiding place where i dont have to explain. unless you find me, i might just hide and disappear from your life forever. 

many a time, i find the wall surrounding me getting higher and higher. i dont like this side of me, but neither do i feel like changing completely. perhaps somethings just need time. 

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no matter what, jia you.. ! .. and life goes on, doesnt it?

p.s. goodbye.