i’m feeling rather down now. i shall start ranting:

1) should i sell away the top that Ma had just helped me to sew the sides so it will be more fitting? 2) i’m getting blamed for not helping my auntie to get a queue number cos she arrived at Funan late and the notebook PC ran out of stock - it’s really hard to please everyone. i did sms Bei telling her what time the collection ends, and that by the time i reached, my queue number was already 639. if not for the kind man who offered me his number 291 ticket, i would not have gotten the notebook that early (i’m actually quite lucky, lucky!) if she had wanted me to get a ticket for her, she should have said so, right! i was very keen on going home cos the notebook was soo heavy and my shoulder was aching. plus the fact that you’re off today too, cant you just go earlier like i did? or call me beforehand to ask me to help you if i’m going earlier? i’m not happy at being blamed for something that it’s almost your fault. 3) i dont really like to discuss anything with my elder sister. most of the time i will feel like i’m gasping for air. she is too impatient and i’m pissed at why couldnt she just talk nicely, explain clearly and fill in all the blanks? she just talked to you in this impatient tone that implies that she has much better things to be doing than talking to her younger sister and could i please hurry up and leave her alone?  very sad relationship we have, yes. 4) there’s work tomorrow and after the 3 days break, i dont feel like going back. 5) ok, i’ve just set up the software for the notebook and indeed, the screen is VERY small. but one good thing is perhaps, its so small that no one would want to use it and it will be solely just mine and mine only :) 6) now, should i sell that top away?!?!