8:58am
just reached work.
am bored.
yes, i still feeling like killing TC whenever he open his big stinky mouth
no, Z is not back yet, at least i still have not heard anything from him
i’m craving for Hellboy, Hancock or Batman movies. oh yes, i wanna watch Sex And the City :(
the moment i arrived, he started yakking about what work i have to do >:(
i’m wearing my new tanktop wheee
the boys at CUS side is rather freaky, they stopped yakking and keep staring whenever i walked by, made me feel like i’ve just sprout another arm or something. creepy weird.
S is okay now, he texted me last night!
i’ve been typing these entries in Gmail since last week. so many drafts!
Char’s bday is tomorrow :) what do you want?!! :D
i hope Jas’s colleagues can be nicer to her
i hope Ma’s aches would go away soon - i suggested going to X-ray last night and she just say, ‘See how.’ - BIG BIG SIGH.
i hope i will be nicer to TC, gah argh puke rah eck ack eww. come on, i’m a nice girl :) self-control!
 
oh yes did i mention.. that i got my pretty belts yesterday?
 
9:28am
ever since the Z, KY and D left, i realized i dont do stupid things anymore. i feel more somber, more quiet, more angry, more happy, more sad, almost like my loner self- anything but my that oblivious self who keep making stupid mistakes/acts, like pulling the door handle off or making silly remarks. work without Z is entirely a different thing. gone were the days where he would come to talk to me or cheer me up if i’m moody every morning, whining that he is hungry and he wants breakfast and asking me to go down to buy with him, he would laugh and shake his head whenever i took a straw for my hot tea, how he will open doors to let me pass first, reminding KY to make my fish soup noodles a special order cos i despise ginger, how he will always sit beside me even when there are empty seats around, our tickling fights, our lengthy heart-to-heart talks - i cant help but wonder if he does all these things to his gf too. of cos, more obviously. who am i kidding? i’m green with envy.
 
perhaps TC is really driving me out of my mind thats why i’m missing him more than ever. by the way, i realized TC looks like my kid bro. not as in he and my bro is alike, THEY ARE SO NOT, thankfully - i mean it in a way that he is so small sized and short and whenever i stand next to him, i got this feeling that i’m bringing my little brother out shopping - he looks like a 14 year old! i told him so on monday hahahahahahaha. gosh, am i very evil :)

2:41pm
back from lunch! boring lunch. we went LJS and it’s sooo boring. it’s like, he expects me to start a conversation EVERYTIME, and when i refused and just keep quiet, he will keep staring at me, its plain annoying. i’m so annoyed that over the past hour, i blurted out that he is a blockwood, i cant click with him at all, he is boring, he is too anti social, all those not very nice things. i feel great while telling him those. the only drawback is that they arent enough. perhaps i’m totally judging him on the exterior, perhaps he deserve a bit of sack, perhaps i’m too selfish and unkind, but well lets just say that i totally dislike him.
 
3:26pm
i’m totally bored now, no one is listening to me whine, i’m not going to engage in any chat with him i’m bored enough that its thank you. i’m whining LOT these days i realized, whining is all i’m capable of! the remains of LJS chicken is still in my stomach with sprite and i wish we had eaten something else today. i have enough breakouts. argh. i wish i bought my book along today!!! no MyPaper either, cos i was late for the train. le sigh.
 
i cant wait to knock off. another 2.5 hours! and anyway.. my supposed-savings plan failed this week. i’ve just gotten my pay last week and it’s almost gone now. i’m really not discipline enough huh? i dont have the endurance to NOT spend. when i see something pretty, i want to own it. not cos it’s a need but well, a want, a desire burning somewhere in the depths of my brain hahahaha. i hate my freaking attitude. Ma is going to be so disappointed if she knows. so is Pa i think. i’m the most disappointing daughter in the world. tell me something new!
 
4:10pm
at this time, ths CUS side people are so noisy, and i still have no one to talk to :( pretty free right now, appeals are done and gone, and i’m left with this 3 big boxes of extra paperwork. i cant imagine working in this kind of paperwork life 3 years later!
 
randomly, i REALLY need to get to LaSenza and grab my reservation stuff or Lia and Shaz might kill me soon haha! i want my greeeeen bra! maybe after next week pay!

oh yes the most embarrassing happened just now! i almost became the JOKE of the whole department. apparently, my swishy skirt wasnt adjusted properly when i came out of the toilet (it was tucked up at the back, thus showing my underwear!), and LUCKILY, the nice lady in the toilet washing her hands told me before i went back and humiliated myself!

phew, thank goodness that there are still nice people around :) i shouldnt feel hopeless afterall!

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exactly 12 more weekdays.. and i finished The Adultery Club which was good! now starting on Tall Poppies by Louise Bagshawe :D gosh, i’m such a nerd!