tired. this is how i feel today; while standing on the train, i could close my eyes and drift off until the train took a turn and jerk me awake with shock. and then it will repeat all over again - this is how exhuasted i am. i’m even typing this with half-open eyes now. S is angry with me, i didnt do as i promise to reply him last night, i’ve forgotten. which brings me to think that perhaps i really dont like him that much anymore, even as friends. hmm, new thought huh? maybe i should do something tonight.
 
right now, there are new stuff to do and i think it beats registering new appeals. i bought my new book along today, The Adultery Club, it’s brilliant :) sigh, i’m such a nerd.

10:07am
this TC is so boring. apparently, i just chanced upon something interesting while doing paperwork and i was excitedly turning back to share, and the moment he saw that i got something to share, he wanna come over! (maybe you dont know but i cant stand him standing very near me, but if faraway i still can try being nice) so i was like, YOU STAY THERE DONT NEED TO COME OVER that kinda words spilled out from my mouth. annoyingly he come over anyway and i lost all the ethusiam to share anything with him. he is so disgustingly boring, picking up my paperwork and trying to see whats so interesting. it pisses me off i dont know why. i think it’s his face.. and no i dont mean it in the swallow way though interestingly, it might be one of the factors, oops. sigh times like these, i wish it is Z who stayed and not.. this fellow. i missed you Z. you must be rowing a boat somewhere in Penang with her.
 
2:01pm
back from lunch of duck rice with alot of bones (i’m mostly just eating plain rice with abit of gravy) and grass jelly drink which we drank while walked into Chinatown and back. he is so freaking annoying - commenting on every action i was making or any words that i was speaking. when i dont talk at all and just keep walking, looking in front, HE ALSO GOT THING TO SAY! i’m so irritated, he is so childish and kiddy, i told him he feels like a little brother (not in the kinship way mind you, i mean his actions and his appearance) and he was defensive and say he is taller than me. yeah, 2cm.
 
i wish Z is back.. i need to rant to someone who understands, though KH is currently my TC ranting machine now. thank you, KH!
 
i need jellybeans, hellp pandas and yam yams please.
 
so gloomy.. AND ITS RAINING NOW SUITS MY MOOD.
 
how was your tuesday afternoon? :) 3 more days till the weekends! i cant wait for another brekkie session :)
 
4:48pm
i’m freezing here.
 
it’s cold and quiet.
 
i miss Pa alot.
 
i wish i can see him again.

we’re always wishing for things that wont come true arent we?