8:46am
just reached work and gah, i feel tired. there’s no one who will greet me HELLO loudly or remarked how he knew it was me coming down the door cos the way my heels clacked on the floor - anymore. i still feel like shit from all the crying last night. luckily my eyes werent swollen this morning, though my face is still as bad. swept the floor just now, Ma was out to the market to buy ingredients to cook later - today is Pa’s father’s death anniversary. i didnt help out to clean the house, or tidy my own bedroom, and cos of this, i’m feeling damn guilty. sigh, i’m seriously am useless. and my irritating aunt is coming later to help out with the offerings and stuff. i wished i did stay home so i can protect Ma from her or something. she is thse kind of %@#! woman who is always all talk and no action. in short, i hate her. i hope she still remember that Pa is her youngest brother.
 
now back to registering cases (oh joy) and 23 more days till i’m out of this shit hole.
 
9:15am
why oh why does he have to describe every single detail of his job to us? like, ‘i’m suppose to take the big file, but i took the small one instead!’ or ‘i just sent this person a letter requesting for his NOA yesterday and today his NOA came in!’ - i’m not interested so please shut up thank you. sigh, imagine i have to spend another 3 weeks and 3 days with him, and i wanna faint.

10:42am
just finished 100 cases. i was texting KH and whining to him about the another-23-days thing and it gets to me that some people seriously have no consolation skills at all. and i thought i was the worse! note to self: never whine/rant to KH and expect some sympathy in return. last night he chatted me up on MSN and i was crying then. he tried to console me by telling things that i know, like i should be strong, Pa wouldnt want to see me like this yada yada, the same old stuff i hear just about a thousand times. then again, i feel like i should give him a break. - what do i expect people to say when i’m depressed? i’m just seeking for some comfort that no one can give. sometimes, a listener is all i ever need.
 
i’m so bored here now, have done the usual things of reapplying my lip candy balm twice so far, texted a few people to pester, read a few blogs (currently i like LMD), and lastly i had finished the usual routine of reading my horoscope on MyPaper. not that i believe (okay actually i do), but they are not true anyway! reading horoscopes had just become our daily routine of reading them aloud (Z and me) and gossiping about the accuracy of it. it was silly, but fun. now it’s just me alone in this routine, and who can i laugh out loud at those stupid things it says?
 
2:33pm
back from lunch at tiong bahru and the black pepper chicken rice with shark fin soup is scrummy yummy! had fun texting with KH, he is kind of like my perk-up today :) went to talk to Sharlene and i’m so terribly envious of her clear complexion! -sulks-
 
am drinking the Vitasoy that the 3 of us bought in a pack of 6. much need calcium :)! this fulfill my new plan of drinking a packet of milk a day!
 
2:41pm
hmm, Z is right. i do apply my candy lipbalm once every 10 minutes!
 
2:47pm
i still have not finished ranting/whining to KH about TC. i’m such a whiner that i think i cant even stand myself. luckily, he totally understands me :)
 
5:08pm
oh god what a sleepy day :( today is worse than yesterday, i almost smacked my forehead against the table top cos i was really dozing off.. and the CUS side people got a call from a member asking for Z. this makes me missed him even more, le sigh. work arent fun anymore - D and TC are alright i suppose, but not FUN.

..er.. 52 more minutes.