i hate the impatient streak in me.

even when i jolly well know that i’m a very impatient person, but in the heat of the moment, i tend to forget to tame down that particular stab of irritation bubbling up from my stomach and flare up ridiculously. afterwards, when i’ve calmed down, i will feel damn guilty for my reaction. seriously, i need to work up on controlling my emotions, go for some management class or something!

had fries/nuggets/bee cha bak for dinner. oh mac goodness, i love macs so much, i can never say no to macs!

another SIM orange letter came in through the mail again. dates of orientation and workshops are set! there will even be outdoors games can you believe! i cant say if i’m excited or not.. school starts at 830am everyday.. and may ended latest at 6pm ohmygod. but okay, i have to say that there’s this teeny weeny bubble of eagerness expanding inside me :) but which modules to choose are the headaches! - which i choose to explore a few weeks later instead.

now, the most important thing is whether i’m staying to work longer or am i leaving on the 11th. ha, i shall let god decide for me, since i had already requested for extension. and speaking of work, i wonder how it would be like on monday, with just cute D, irritating TC, and me. guess what? upon hearing that i might be staying for a few more weeks, TC announced that he is thinking about it too and had went to tell our boss about it. meaning that after next week, if they need both staffs, it will be left only the 2 of us! i seriously cannot imagine how it will be like - cos get this, i cannot get along with him at all. everytime he opens his stinky mouth, nothing good comes out from it. he is 1.59m tall and he keep making snide remarks about my height, or the lack of it. when he himself is just a few cm taller than me. and he enjoys staring at people eat their lunch - which i find incredibly creepy. plus he always bounces while he walked! like, trying to make himself appear a little taller when he walked. i mean, i know i’m of a petite height, but i am a girl for god’s sake. how many girls would actually go for a guy his height? he should be the one worrying hello. to keep it short, whenever he open his mouth, i tune out. i dont bother. imagine just the two of us working… please, i would rather be alone. in fact, i dont mind working alone, or lunching alone. that was why i went up to request for an extension even though the boys would be gone by then. i need to master the art of independence. and this would be the best test for me.

and Z kept telling that TC is acting so annoyingly is cos he is carrying a torch for me. and he keep laughing madly after that! this is so not the truth, i refused to believe it, and Z keep repeating that his guy’s instinct is 99.9% correct most of the time. but it’s too creepy, he is just too creepy!!

but oh well, we shall see how things turns out on monday!

i had too much of good and expensive food lately. last week, there was HK Cafe - where i eat the enormous bowl of chilli pork maggie mee and i tried to look like i wasnt stunned by the flowing redness of chilli and dao geh peppered on the top, but it was surprising okay, except that the pork meat is too tough to bite off and that the side dish of some prawn roll is terrible for i hate real sour cream; sakae sushi - where i tried the teriyaki chicken ramen which took AGES to arrive, and we only found out that they actually missed my order when Z stopped a waitress and asked about my noodles. the ramen was… edible i suppose. i dont find it anything different from my usual bowl of home-cooked maggie mee; Subway - yummy subway melt and cookies at Harbour Front!

no wonder i’m spending wayyyy too much.

too much good and heaty food is getting me pimply :( like yesterday, JW bought us the usual curry puffs he did every friday and i skipped it and brought it back instead. i dont dare to eat it as i feared more pimples! so i only gobbled down the soya beancurd which is so freaking good i could swoon. i love soya beancurd!

i’m swearing off heaty food but i just couldnt refused the mac temptation tonight. :(

and sigh, J is now online and "busy" and not talking to me. i wonder what will become of out friendship. once bitten, twice shy.. twice bitten?

Z is chatting with me on MSN now and he is off to shower. somehow, the realization that i wont be seeing him on monday or in a few weeks’ or maybe months’ time or even never again, still hasnt sink in yet - ah, no wonder i can still act so happy.