I know that this world isn't always the safest place. I wanted to write this down, because we could die tomorrow; And you will never know, just how much you meant to me. ♥
No strings attached
tonight, it marks the longest MSN chat i ever had with Z, and it just ended 10 mins ago cos he couldnt stand it anymore and need to sleep. somehow, things feels a bit different, it feels like i am pouring out too much of my heart and emotions into him. it’s like, i’m telling him close up to 80% of my life. he knows so much about my life, my problems, my friends, my family that i’ve ever shared it with other people. i have no idea why is he so curious that he asked almost everything.
i need to keep my heart contained, i cant wear my heart on the sleeve and just poured out my feelings into our supposed friendship. i can never let him suspected my feelings for him - even if i badly want to.
he tells you that his relationship with his gf is very stable remember? you cant possibly go around spoiling everything and risked breaking this thin line of thread connecting you to him.
drained, sadly.
POSTED @ 2:54 am | ♥ is the sum of all our choices
