just created another new account, and i thought i should move. so this is the fickled me acting up again - changing usernames whenever i pleased. and then regretting and wanting to change back again. i think blogger’s changing link feature really suits me the best!

aw-naw.

another terrific day just draw its conclusion. tuesday, lunch was Subway Melt again, plus two delicious cookies - macademia, my new love hello. Subway has the best cookies besides Mrs Field’s and Famous Amos ever. my 3 favourite cookies places. cookies never failed to cheer me up and then, brought guilt to my well-being again cos of these @#$@#$ pimples that is popping up all over the frigging place. le sigh. how not to be heaty when all our lunches consists of BK, Macs, etc - just everything heaty?! and expensive, rah. i’m missing simple kopitiam food suddenly. :)

monday was incredible; we decided to risk our lunch break to head down to Tiong Bahru GV to catch Wanted - for me the 2nd time! the cinema was frigging freaking cold and what makes me happy was that i was comfortably snuggling beside Z, hahaha. it was one nice 2 hours to remember, perhaps that will be the one and only time we ever sat together in a movie. after that was tabao-ing BK for lunch, fish and cheese yummy! the first time we brought our food back to our office to eat. - what can i say? monday is full of the smallest first-times that i’m happy to immersed myself in. and when i looked back this post one day, i know i will remember every touch, laughter, joke, secret shared.

i hated the fact that everybody’s remarking how terrible my english is. which is the reason why i’m reading and hitting the library more often than ever. just last night, i dropped by the WS branch after work and i bumped into Da and her boyfriend on the platform. when i told her where i was going, she looked at me and say, ’so boring.’ i was rather irritated, i find nothing wrong with the urge to read and borrowing books - is there? probably, another reason to add to the list why we can never clicked.

tonight, i saw how much Ma was hurting, her left shoulder down to her arm, and i was wondering desperately what i can do to relieve her pain. when i realized there’s nothing much i can do except to massage her muscles and apply the ointment, i feel so darn useless. what else can i do? what is there left to be done? what am i capable of?

feeling useless is the last feeling i ever want to feel.