1. i dont know why, but i just want to write and write and write.

2. i feel like sighing, but it’s a happy day, rather than a sad one, and i dont wish to waste it away by sulking. and whining. and complaining.

3. i’m watching the taiwanese superstar show right now and it’s so sad. i hate goodbyes and partings.

4. he is not online right now, and that makes me even sulkier hahaha, gosh am i pathetic or what? :(

5. Jas bought me honey milk tea today, and amusingly, she doesnt realized she is actually the cause of the fight between Mum and me - until just now when she called me. but we’re okay now and yay to sisters.

6. i need movies, i need some popcorn, i need some laughs and some new memories.

7. i think i’m going to have lots of laugh lines and wrinkles now - all thanks to the never-ending giggles and outburst of laughter at work.

8. tomorrow is Friday, and that means dress-down days - hooray, i get to wear my T-shirt and denim!

9. i’m so slacked at work this week that i’m constantly either dozing off with my palm against the crook of my neck, or finding myself engaging in chats with work gang. i’m such a pig yeah!

10. lunch = good food these days. just earlier this week, we had Thai Express and yesterday, we even went down to Bugis (my suggestion) to have the yummy omelette rice that cost $7.50 a plate! rather costly for a foodcourt meal. in the end, we headed back to work late cos of the heavy downpour and we slacked at IP’s BK till 3 plus. awesome, cos time truly flies. :D

11. we talked, we talked, and we talked. it was lovely. i find chats with you incredibly fascinating. everyday, we have a new topic to explore. i feel that i’ve known you forever. it was very lovely. i love the way you tease me, poke me, make fun of me, sit close to me, the way you always pull me away from walking disasters, like an incoming car, or some random passer-by. it was very very lovely.

12. but everything has its end.

13. and we are nearing the THE END sign. 2 more weeks, you say? i dont even dare to ask you properly or think about it. it simply hurts. here, my heart, is aching.

14. i know i had mention million of times my feelings about Z, a zillion times in fact - that the feelings are wavering ones. i just need to write, just leave me to write so i can one day (hopefully) sort this out, straighten this mess.

15. sigh.

16. i know i’m hopeless, useless, and such a pain-in-the-neck!

17. 11:58PM and he is still not online - argh why do i even bother

18. i need some texts, someone, anyone, to tell me that i’ve been missed. thank you.

p.s. i feel like changing my livejournal name! heh.