back and sleepy and hungry - i even had abit of gastric ugh ugh ugh. what can i say, im hungry!

today was good, almost. cos someone totally made my day as usual. sometimes i think i like him as a brother, sometimes i think he is nothing but a colleague, while other times, i fell completely in love.

omg, stab me please.

i made a decision not to join the guys out for pubbing and dinner - and they in turn decide to postpone the date to next week for me. - made me happy and a teeny bit touched really, heh.

now, they have stooped low enough to start calling me ‘cute’ at every chance they got - ever since i told them how offensive i find the word. argh, it seriously sound like sarcasm to me!

p.s. relationship with Mum gets a teeny bit better this morning - she wish me good day!

to you:
you will never understand how appreciative i feel whenever you sit down beside me and listens. you’re such a great listener who gave great advices. i appreciate how you called me this morning after i sent you the text saying i might not be joining for dinner, just to check that i’m coming to work today. i was walking behind you this morning, at the mrt station. but i didnt call out to you - you were too fast. so there i was, staring at your backview in wonder. i was just at the lift when you called me. i assumed you called me immediately after you reached and noticed i’m not at my seat. and then, when i reached, you came and wheeled the chair over and sit down and started asking me what happened. the look of concern in your eyes, the way you cared, the way you consoled me just by sitting beside me when i dont want to talk - and there you stayed, not even going down to get your breakfast like usual. you even swop seats just to sit beside me the whole day. i do wonder you know, wonder what these actions meant. i dont wish to get my hopes up over nothing - cos the way i’m feeling is never constant, and the way you react differs. i even wonder to the extent how well you treated your gf. but part of me knows, to you, i’m simply a friend/colleague. i’m sorry it’s so pathetic, but the truth always does hurts doesnt it. - ?

to J:
thank you for the text this morning at 8am in the morning that goes:

good morning, addy! been a few days since i last talked to you, dont know why am i feeling so uneasy. well, just to wish you a great day ahead! =)

aw, i’m blinded by your sweetness. and the thought of getting medicine for me when i told you about my gastric, you know what, it counts so so much.

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p.s.and i’m pretty happy that rene ask me out for beer and cake! hahahaha :)