it was a relatively lovely day, this friday, amazingly, without your prescene. i was half thinking this morning that today must be the lousiest day of the week, but whoops - it wasnt. it was very down to earth, very funny, very.. quiet. of cos, you always make the loudest noise while you’re at work. part of me knew, that today must be the day you will have a date with your girlfriend, and of cos, why am i surprise and feeling almost envious here. it’s a silly feeling, but hell, it’s still here, trapped in my heart alright. 

i was almost anticipating your texts - but none came. i wonder, will you be online once i sign in tonight? 

oh yes, before i forgot, the sim letter came on wednesday, that big orange envelope stuff with papers i have no idea what it was about. just one thing i understand from those black print: 16 june is the deadline for response and the first payment total up to about 7k. i was asking Mum just now if she thinks i should really go for it and she says, ‘of cos.’ and so far, i’ve been trying to convince myself that this is what god is giving me - another one chance to replace the broken. 

babygirl was texting me today and i’ve completely forgotten to tell her about this offer. she was rather encouraging and in turn, i’m happy that she will be getting such a good job offer while studying full time for banking and finance. wayyy to go, i’m so jealous :D JW came to look for me after lunch and he asked me about my studies. when i told him, he, like everybody else, eyed me questioningly and pop out the same question: why diploma? i proceed to explain the 13423123th time and before he leaves, he looked at me seriously and say, ‘please think carefully. you wont want to have regrets’ sigh, come on, i dont need such neutral-mix-with-negative remarks right now okay. though i know you meant well, but… oh well, i got my own decisions to make.

of cos, i’m gripped with hesitation. i’m pausing abruptly in the middle of nowhere, trying to seek the correct direction. but like he was telling me just yesterday, there is no such thing as the correct direction. sigh i could do with a really good chat with him right now. chats that lead to something.. unlike those zzz comments gave by people who simply throw me pitying looks every now and then. quote: diploma?! whyyyyyy!

haha.

anyway, i met up with Jas just now after work to have our eyebrows plucked. and lets just say we didnt get our 8 bucks worth. it’s more like, 3? but at least it’s neater now who am i to complain!

saturday, saturday - sentosa here i come :)

a few words to say:

; been wishing i could say a few more words. 
did i mention? the time spent with you are always not enough.

; i still think about you everyday. dont think just cos i dont write about you, means you’re forgotten. never.