I know that this world isn't always the safest place. I wanted to write this down, because we could die tomorrow; And you will never know, just how much you meant to me. ♥
I Could Have Tried, Tried Harder
life is weird. i’m feeling just a teeny bit sulky right now. how could it happened when just a while ago i was flying through the clouds, with the world under my feet?
i realized i have alot of expectations on myself, just that i had never meet them properly.
it had been a while since i write about you, Pa.
nothing seems to change, yet everything had. how could time had passed so fast without your existence, i wonder? i miss you dearly, miss you like it was like the first day. the first day when i knew what hell really meant. how can i ever laugh when you’re never coming home again? now that i thought about it, i really wondered. wonder how things which i had deemed as impossible started being the exact opposite? are humans like this, meant to adapt quickly to whatever situation or environment just as long as the clock never stops? i hate to think that i’m laughing through my life while you’re not here to share those ridiculous jokes with me. i know you would have laughed, you would wont you?
and i hate to think that everything is continuously changing, without you here, witnessing it, feeling it, being in it.
.. Pa, you would have been happy for me today wont you? i hope i didnt disappoint you, i hope i had done you proud.
POSTED @ 12:52 am | ♥ is the sum of all our choices
