tomorrow is graduation day! okay, it’s officially here today. *switch to happy mode*

firstly, i’m feeling broke today, all thanks to the last-minute rush to buy a suitable top for the ceremony later on in the afternoon. the things was, i came home, thinking that i got a few tops to try and perhaps one must be appropriate, but no, it all look out of place and so wrong. one looks too baggy on me, one too dark, and the other had holes where a belt should be at (but wearing with the belt looks all weird!!) — thus, i had no choice but to pull back on my work clothes, grabbed my wallet and phone and rushed for the door. i reached TM at 830pm :), dropped by Zimple and came out with a brand new hot pink bag.. and a big hole in my pocket! le sigh. just for a freaking one-hour ceremony, i had to swipe my NETS card. :( but well, i love that top hehehe.

seriously, i hope tomorrow will be one damn good day.

i dont know what am i thinking, acting and feeling like the biggest idiot in the history. it shouldnt be this way. what seems like a long time since i had developed this kind of feelings on someone who isnt worth it. yes, who isnt worth it at all. he dont deserve me acting so moody and angry just cos of a subtle remark, a bark of laughter over sensitive issues, and then me, glaring and laughing at the same time, trying to defend myself.. but to no avail. he always wins. i know he is smart, i know that his brain rotates and turn so much faster than mine, i know i’m rather intelligently-challenged, i know he is always out-smarting me. i know he will always have the solutions, always know the right words to say to tickle my laugh genes, and he knew my weaknesses.

another word for it, this is totally and simply ridiculous. just stop it all, and i’m backing away. i deserve much better, i think.

.. but i dont know why. whenever i hear him laughing at me, i got a happy flutter inside. hmm, you’re right. i got to be sick in the mind!