i’ve never been so annoyed as of today.

the constant laughter, screaming and yells running bouncing off the walls, and i can say i just wished i arent home. home used to be the place where i seek peace. but not anymore. staying at home on weekends proved to be totally stressful, chaotic and everything ugly. i just want to put a pillow over my head to muffle it all out. anything, just anything. my nephew, is the worse. how can someone who looked so angelic and adorable, be a a total devil inside. he bangs, he tears, he shrieks, he messes. anything that he touches, seems to be damaged soon after a few seconds. anything that he tramples, crumples. as much as i loved him, these are one of the things i cant stand.

and his darling mother, who simply just stayed in the room, yelling a few ’stop it’ every 15 minutes. how does this helps when you dont sit him down nicely and tell him that he shouldnt do that? i dont have that kind of patience, i’m just too annoyed over the attitudes of my family members. one destroys, one dont care, and the other scream along. i dont know how this happens, i really dont. peace okay. thats all i’m asking for. but that seems too much to be asking for the moment.

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i’m feeling stressed. you dont care, you dont speak. it feels great to give it all up suddenly. i dont want it anymore. if you dont care, so be it. i dont need these crap, thank you. it always take 2 hands to clap, dont you know.

and to think i have such funny expectations. and like i said before, it will hurt so damn much to plummet back on earth.

and i’m already falling, falling; the hurt is seeping in.

friendship comes in cheap these days - how right you are!