graduation day.
university.
him.

there’s so many things in my mind right now that i’m afraid i would burst. i hate feeling this way. i got 6 more days to think about uni, and i got a week and 3 days left to get myself mentally prepared for the grad ceremony. i want desperately to be free of these. i just feel like enjoying what i can do right now; i need time to think. i need time to decide. i need time, time, time. but time is slipping me by.

and i want to stop thinking about him. and he’s not making things any easier, is he.

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it turns out that mum’s arm is more serious that we thought. i hope it’ll be okay. it got to be.

UPDATE, Sunday afternoon:

i’m feeling calmer, i expected it’s due to the talk i had with Ping this afternoon. i think i know what i should do now. there will always be room for regrets if i let there be; but there also could be room for improvement too, if i let it be. i dont want to be sulking with regrets over the decision that i would be making by this saturday. i want to be proud of it, and i want it to be the best choice out of the two. the best i can give myself. so what if there will be a twinge of regret nagging at the back of my mind, i just have to make the best out of it. and i will. time will tell.

let’s hope i will stay this strong, sticking up to this belief, let’s hope i will hold on tight. let’s hope i wont plummet back to the ground with a thump. that will really really hurt.