this morning i woke up and tried this new thing called the scandal bb cream after blotting my face. i think i love the end results of this! after several hours, my skin is glowing with this healthy look and i think part of it is thanks to my new lime secret pact :) hooray, i think skinfood is getting addictive haha ;)

right now, i’m not only jobless and schooless, and i feel almost useless. i feel like i’m wasting my time away, fretting over the university issue, not getting a definite answer, and then.. what? isnt something that could be done to salvage these difficulties, clear these doubts? cant i find a job quickly, take the initiative to tidy up the house, or simply my pig-sty of a room? why cant i make a decision in a snap and just submit the application? it’s going to be thursday which means i can collect my transcript and then, what other excuses do i have not to submit the documents?

how come i’m not doing something? i’m kind of just shrugging and letting things be. it doesnt work out like that. there must be something that i could do, something that i must do. just.. something. anything.

this wandering feeling arent good. i need someone to talk to me, to guide me out of this.

 

but then again, i know these uneasiness would have to pass. cos there’s no point in fretting; life’s like that. things will fall into place quickly if i believe. but now, a hug would really be good.. you know?

 

the world will not change for me