我到底又在期待些什么 ..我真是一个大笨蛋

没有这中期待 就不会失望 我也许也会过得快乐一点吧

你是大笨蛋吗

 

删除删除 我要删除.. !

right now, i’m kind of still trying to figure out what i reallllyyyy want to do and i’m hearing views from everyone, trying to hear something that would make the switch inside me click and snap in place. it’s helping, yay.. kind of. and i think i should call cat tomorrow and start bombing her with questions hahaha. and also, i think i must quickly make a decision and either find a part-time job or go back to LS. asap. 16 more days..! damn.

oh, why the hell am i so slow.

on another note, i really feel like going some place with fresh air suddenly. i think i really need that. but that would be totally impossible right now ha ha ha. whatever am i doing here, typing all these nonsense when i should be thinking what course do i want to go into?! i had a brief talk with Mum just now. somehow, alot of problems are occuring because i’m feeling the guilt. i’m guilty. i want something but i’m afraid to reach out and grasp it. oh i’m a coward indeed. Mum’s right when she say i need to be brave. i need lots of courage. i cannot look back.

so, yes the conclusion is, i need to be brave. braver.

 

and here am i worrying right, left and upside down. seriously, you can do better, cant you.

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lunch and 第一戒 movie with Char today and both the food at Jerry’s and the show were great. :) anyhow, this horror flick required plenty of er, courage too! which i totally lacked of course T_T. they really arent lying about the ‘disturbing scenes’ bit..

i’m just such a coward lah.