today is kind of my last day at LS. i’m feeling really weird indeed. and i do wonder why. i realized, i dont really want to walk out of my comfort zone, i dont wanna walk out and have something change that i might not like. i’m not a risk-taker, i’m not that courageous nor am i that adventurous. deep down, i’m scared. i’m worried. i’m afraid things wouldnt fall into place nicely, i’m fearful of setbacks. i hate this side of me. but i tell myself, lets not worry now shall we? let’s concentrate on what i have now, and figured out one by one. all things will find their way and fall into its own place, in its own time. i wanna believe that. i wanna trust myself. but..

i’m afraid and i dont know where i should go from here.