hello world, i’m very sad right now. i seriously hate fast decision-making. it’s always like, what happens if i make the wrong one? and then this fear will flow in, resulting in me hesitating and hesitating, and then when you had finally made your decision, it just happens that that choice is no longer yours and had been snapped up by others.

i’m very very sad right now. i seriously pray that my interview can definitely be re-scheduled. to a satisfying time of course! please please puh-lease!

anyway, just received news that oh, i actually need to get back to work at the end of february if i want to continue being an employee of LS. heck, i will still be having my exams then! so, i guess it’s byebye? maybe, heh, sigh, i dont know! damn all these decisions. if only there are better choices available.

right now, i’m just praying that my slot for the interview can be changed!

i’m supposed to be studying.. and updating my portfoilo (hahaha, as if i got better things to put inside) but i cant find the only sole cert that i’m proud of! my CG cert.. :( damn, i always have such bad luck in finding things.

and i’m supposed to be doing irritating flash clips and setting questions for netsec and burying myself in mcomm book but i’m not doing any of these. i’m too busy worrying about my interview and for the past hour, i had been vigorously refreshing my tpmail page hoping to see new mails!

another thing i’m hoping, that i dont need an extent MC. if that’s the case, that’s really the end of my BB presentation and napfa test, shucks!

please please, re-schedule my interview.. puhh-leaseee..

oh the lucky me has an interview on this friday oh hell. i hate interviews, they’re truly the bane of my life. i think it’s just that i dont like all these tests that prove myself, my capabilites, etc.. well, because i dont think i have much of those. :( but i think friday that it’s.

so this friday, it will not only be my first day back in school after 2 weeks of absence, but i have BB presentation, napfa test and an interview scheduled. not to mention loads of notes to copy!

…..

 

boy, i cant wait. :(

but on a slightly cheerier note, i had just finished my resume, cover letter and found an awesomeeee job ad (ya right, boring actually, and so NOT me). so, say YAY! :D

 

p.s. i might not be quitting LS after all, old little contradicting me says. hah! oh hell.