back home, worn out, tired and feeling so broke :(

i’m feeling damn materialistic lately, doing loads of impulsive buying - bags, tops and those little bits and pieces that adds up to quite alot. whatever is wrong with me? it’s like, i kept falling in love with stuff and simply just buying it because my bank account hasnt go empty yet. so.. what? i’ll only stopped after it had emptied out?

and.. i’m buying another bag i’m sharing with Jas.

Mum is going to go bonkers on me if she knew! i just show her my black bag which i kept hidden among my junk on my pig-sty bed *ahems* and luckily, she just nods and say ‘that’s nice’. :D thank goodness she hasnt started shouting at me yet; i had such a lovely Mum :) but i bet she will go bonkers on me if she knew what other stuff i planned to be buying.. or if she started browsing through the piles on my bed..!

the LS gift-swapping took place this afternoon. i got to see everyone’s presents, and it turns out that everybody had gotten their gift prepared only today! haha, it’s really amusing seeing how everyone troubled and panicked over what presents to give. they managed to swap after the arrival of Rini and the canadian pizza delivery - frankly, i’m not that crazy over pizzas! i can say no to them over any day.

somehow, i felt left out in the swapping thing while they picked a name and squeal over the stuff they had gotten. like a bunch of people oohing and aahing by the counter while you were somewhere in front of the shop, toying with a bunch of undies.. okay, i’m making myself sound absolutely pathetic. whatever. some feelings are better off finding no meaning for and just leave it to rot in my brain. yes yes, that’s right.

speaking of gifts, Lia bought me a necklace from Helen! i am happy about it, thank you. and Cat, she gave me a brinjour (oops, have no idea of the spelling, but it’s purple with green stem on top) shaped magnet cum pen! thank you too - it’s adorable. and lastly, Char bought us cute massengers, thank you :D, it’s cuteee but my Mum is afraid of it when i show her hahaha.

anyway, today work came with a pretty bad news: kakak is transferring over to Vivo city. i’m upset of course, though i didnt really expressed it. tell me, if the person seem quite keen about the whole transfer issue thing, and is looking forward to the challenge, would you show your unhappiness to that person? that’s why i kept my mouth shut about it. it makes absolutely no sense for me to be sad if she’s in fact happy about it.. what do you think?

i hate changes normally; i hate it when people i liked working with leave before i could leave myself (hahaha). but well, change might be good as who knows if it would bring something new and different? so, why not?:)

meet up with the girls for dinner at Villa’ge after work. the meal rocks and the food is so good that i feel completely bloated after that! however, some thoughts were running through my mind like a treadmill like always. i’m felt sad, troubled and lost.. for these friendships which will forever have its limitations no matter how close we seemed to be, or how much fun we have in these gatherings. i know it myself, i could feel it in my heart. something is changing, altering - or maybe had already changed; we arent in the past whereby we used to see each other everyday, lunched and hit malls after school together anymore. we’re growing up, growing, perhaps in a separate direction from one another.. something kinda like a star you know? beginning at the same point but ending in different routes, though staying connected.

oh well oh well, why am i spoiling a mood like this now?

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reminders to myself, here’s a list of tasks that i really must get them done:

1) update bank book
2) apply for ib and ib device
3) photocopy scan of matric card
4) check with polymates if there is school on monday
5) submit the citibank form
6) curb my spendings!!

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this mouse really sucks! i have to re-write 1/4 of the post due to it clicking twice or thrice when i only click ONCE. argh!

7) CHANGE A NEW MOUSE!

 

Thoughts right now: should i get the bag?!

p.s. i’m not referring to the bag i’m sharing with Jas - yes, i’m talking about another bag!

will somebody punch me please.