I feel like whining and kicking my feet against something or stuffing chips and more chips into my mouth while finding someone to rant and complain and just whineeeeeee with. it had been a tiring day and i do feel very beat. my legs are aching and my back muscles feels strained and now as i’m typing this, even my arms ache. my hair is dry and i feel awful. it’s only the third day back to work and i’m ready to scream and runaway. almost every tiresome minute that went passed today are filled with stupid questions like, ’should i quit? should i finally made up my mind and go?’ tell me, what the point huh? i feel so lousy, incapable of anything, and i know i should perservere and continued dreading each work day - what’s so bad about working in a air-conditioned shop with kinda pretty things? where i just answer customers’ enquiries, help them find their right sizes, measure them, get new pieces, swap their cards and wrap their items up? whats so difficult about that? what’s so annoying about the customers? what’s so irritating about the fact that my malay colleagues are always yakking malay and i dont understand a single thing and i get so vexed about it that most of the times i walked away from them and try to entertain myself by straightening a panty or two? i know that i know how to socialize. i know how to make jokes and laugh at myself. but sometimes, it’s about whether other people notices that they didnt really try including you in that makes people dont bother wanna try at all. that’s how i feel anyway. and it seems like i have complaint about this issue umpteen times but it’s been so long and i havent found any solution or any improvement. it’s only when i get hyper moods and forced myself into their conversation and then they will say ‘channel5, channel5.’ but heck? why dont they try including me their talks instead? that would be nice you know. i’m sick about work, the idea of a new work environment that involves sitting on swirling chairs and typing data into the computer seems so fresh.

so today i tagged and hang up alot of panties and boxers and babydolls which are very yummy. chiffon, nylon, polyester, hmm! more customers trooped in to buy christmas gifts again and just yesterday night, a particular customer spent $100 on panties as gifts! haha. and today, one of my customers bought the santarina suit and that sexy game set! whoops, wonder what creative idea she is displaying tonight heeheehee. i had Macs today and shaker fries! :) which i kinda am sick of now, ugh.. the msg.. i cannot imagine. forgot to mention that i’m in Jas’s room now again, tippy-tapping on her laptop! she’s back to Jurong with baby and hubby.. and will only be back tomorrow!

geez, what a silent night. - Da is not home too!

MR OPTIMISTIC, WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUUU