You know what! Today i’m feeling so lucky and happy. it’s such a lucky lucky day because m-comm paper is almost (almost) a breeze! i think i might just pass ;) but okay, let’s not jumble things up and just keep big mouth shut and fingers crossed tight for the second time!

somehow, i feel that someone is watching over me, keeping ugly questions away from my sight! but shhh, there’s still one more to conquer tomorrow before i can really kick my books and papers and pens under the bed! (since my bed is totally crammed full of my clothes/paper and plastic bags/books/bags/and more clothes!) yeah, if you can probably imagine the sight.. it totally resembles a pig sty :) - thankfully i’m not sleeping on it!

at this time, i supposed to be continuing studying BB for tomorrow 1230pm paper. but i will just take an hour break alright? i will strive on after i finish this post. hehhh.

recently, due to not needing to rush to work almost every evening, i get to watch Prince Jumong on the telly every night! he’s so cool and smart and clever and cute and so so intelligent i tell you. i really enjoy this show. tomorrow’s episode is gonna be totally fantastic! but guess what? i got to go back and hang bras and tag underwear tomorrow evening. :( wakey wakey, no more leave till 6 days later! ohmygod. i’m so not getting used to work. now, it feels like i’m no longer working already, haha, can you believe this fantasic feeling? but i need an income. so thou shall not complain and be miserable or angry over this. yes, i feel so sensible! on a happier thought, i feel this spark of excitement bubbling inside me at the thought of going back to see my colleagues and check out the new stock! :) and.. speaking of colleagues, i saw Flora in school today! i was crossing the bridge to get to my examination room while she’s heading out. such coincidence, i havent seen her in really a long long time. i was surprised that she could recognise me because i cant! nice surprises. she said she will drop by soon!

(i just realize this post is full of exclamation marks!!!)

anyway, i chanced upon this comment that speaks truely..

its not going to be easy and dont hasten this process of growing up. you will hurt you will get angry, you will cry, you will pine, you will long, then you will cry, you will get resentful, then its the same emotional ride all over again and you wonder why but you know why. everything happens for a reason.

.. short and sweet, but really quite true. though, depending whether you believe if all things happen for a reason. i believe but just that sometimes, the level of resentment overcomes sensible thoughts, and flipped the calmness in you. it’s like a switch, on and off, and sometimes with a flick, the switch just drown everything into darkness.

you know what.. ? oddly, it still feels very surreal and unacceptable.

wonder when this will last..

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oh i love you. very very much.