why is it so hard to look for a decent header? argh, i’ve been on it for the past few days but i find.. nothing. absolutely nothing! :( okay okay, bottomline is, i’m sort of bored with my current layout, ha! okay okay, i’m supposing to be mugging ultra, extra, incredibly hard for my netsec paper on tuesday but .. hee, a girl gotta rest, aint it? though i’ve been slacking and over-extending my break ever since 5pm.. ? or was it 4? hmmm okay, never mind.

the past few days had been pretty slack for me, oh helpp. i kept telling myself that i’ll go out and study or something, just anywhere but at home where procastination takes place all the time. but i woke up at almost 12pm every morning (somehow i loved snuggling in those rumpled sheets and rolled around them for a few more hours), took my time to eat my breakfast/lunch, read a few pages of The Zahir, brought out the pile of papers and my precious nice-smelling BB textbook (seriously, i can never get enough how nice this textbook smells - like brand new! must be the $11 i paid to photocopy the book), study for like, one hour before staggering back to Mum’s room because the living room is totally chaotic. baby xavier’s screams and shouts, sister’s big loud mouth, teevee laughing, bro tapping on the keyboard - arghhhh, i have enough. and through closed doors, the buzzing sounds in the living room still can be heard loud and clear, sigh! i’m clueless how can i concentrate like that. but bless tomorrow - i’m going to have a few serene hours :) i hoped!

recently, the sky seems to be getting greyer.. and greyer. raining non-stop the whole day really gets the pig out of you. i was studying so studiously when my gaze switched over to the cozy bed and the sheets of rain outside the window.. and -flop!- i was on the bed till 7pm. somebody kill me please. where have the motivation gone to? okay, never mind, i think it will come back tomorrow. :)

one more day to the first paper! i’m so excited. yeah, right.

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11/12/2007 is going to be an important day.

 

i thought of you each time, and the things you used to do, used to say will flood into my mind.

and then, my face will start to crumple.. this is another cycle. and on and on, it will go. forever and ever.