guess what? The Shopaholic Series will start filming next january! :)

i think i shall not sleep that early tonight and start preparing my BB notes. it’s absolutely shiok-ness that weekends are without work. it’s been so long that i get to sleep in late wakakaka. but okay, no, NOPE, tomorrow I GOT TO GET MY BUTT OUT OF BED AND TROOP TO AIRPORT OR SOMEWHERE QUIET TO STUDY.

I HAVE TO!

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sometimes, dont we always wished for someone to be there? to be your pillar to lean on, to be your mattress which standby by your side in case you fall, to be the pair of arms that would catch you and protect you, be there for you, tell you that ‘everything will be alright’ - even if it’s a lie, a consolation.

you know what, at times, i get sick of being independent. i get tired of holding myself upright all the time, tired of keeping troubles to myself, tired of getting mad at people but they have no idea, tired of the unspoken feelings i kept locked up in the depths of my heart, tired of mending those cracks again and again, tired of.. just simply tired. do you, do you often have these feelings or am i being the silly one?

i no longer missed that him. perhaps yes, on occasions or places that we used to go, but seriously, the pain is no longer there - just wonder. it’s such an irony that it takes a heartbreak, to forget another.

i rather remember that previous pitiful heartbreak than suffered another even more heart-breakingly heartbreak. life is full of tests, corners that we are all curious or afraid to explore. in the circle of our comfort, we just want time to stop at the particular moment where we feel the happiest, the most blessed. pity time doesnt works like - not at all.

christmas is coming - the season of snow, twinkling lights, presents, sleepovers, stockings, cookies, gingerbreadman, snowflakes, reds and greens, frosty icing, log cakes, love, care, share, giving - have i name them all?

it will always always feel empty no matter how many blessings exchanged; pity santa claus cant make time go back around.

what a wet day!

lessons as per normal, except that i was @#$@#$# late and thus, have to spent 6bucks to take cab to school. but the taxi-driver is really nice and keep asking me about my course, etc and he even wish me good luck for my exams! sometimes, it’s just the smallest and silliest things that cheers me up. :) and the reason why i was late is pure stupid okay. i was spending time taking and putting on my grey cardigan thinking it looked silly and then taking it off and on and it’s only when time is running really short that i decide that i look half-decent and that nobody’s going to look at me anyway before i scrambled out of the house in disarray.

lessons was okay and I PASSED MY BB QUIZ :D thats the main highlight of the day. and kh is so dear to give me a stack of past exams papers! so, i mainly went tampmall to check out the mod birks (which i sooooo wanna buy), keep taking it off and trying it in front of the mirror and then decided i’ll think about it T_T sigh! sometimes i just wish i could have those kind of unthinkable impulses that will automatically direct my hands to pick up the item, stalk over to the cashier and hand over the cash hahaha. but no, i’m born to think about a hundred consequences first before acting - unless the item is freaking cheap. like, my $14 bag heh. and the 100 consequences normally involved Mum screaming at me and me, slamming the bedroom door in defiance, ahem. well, never mind, i will just get my $19 cardigan first :)

this afternoon, i bought back bubble teas which is darn heavy and i was on the bus when it started raining monkeys and dinosaurs. sheets of rain just pitter-patter on the bus window and i still have to climb that freaking newly-built overhead bridge. poor baby xavier is still having that arm sling on. :( hope he recover 101% soon!

okay, it’s a happy day today! i’ve finally figured out the c/n calculations and did a 1 page notes. damn HFC cals, i still have trouble understanding it! 3 more days to the first paper and i’m so nervous oh helpppppp.

 

i miss you today, i dream of you just now.