right now, i still dont feel like sleeping. i have the paperback, Shopaholic and Baby on my lap and i’m checking out stuff to buy online - except that there’s nothing decent to buy without wasting money totally. i’m such a cheapskate lately *roll eyes*

jas is playing the radio in her room - and the music that wafts out is soothing. i dont like to on music whenever i’m using the computer but i like it faraway, somehow. have you listen to jay chou’s new album? i think it’s delightful. weeks ago, i had the whole album loaded into my ipod but i dont know why, i hasnt reached the songs yet.

there are many many things that i wished i got time to do. i got loads of such things on an invisible list that immediately updates whenever i thought of something new. but somehow, in my hearts of hearts, i know there’s a rare chance that i will ever get along to complete them. i want to go starbucks, to go for movies marathon, to shop for new jeans before the next term break rolls around, go cycling, go for nice dinners at nice restaurants, go vivo city, hang out more with mummy, join a club or something to meet new friends, look for new part-time jobs, etc. the list goes on, and so does the time.

i wonder how i should cope with my term-tests. i wonder which subject i should be stuyding first. i worry about such stuff, about people being better than me, and i’ll be unable to catch up. i’m afraid of losing, i’m forever being in a silent competition, trying to out-do others, or being in the same step as them. i’m like that and i hate it so.

it’s one o’clock and i should go to bed soon. and as usual, the unopened textbook i bought along behind me lay untouched.

i’m so displeased with myself. and i really really need to tweeze my eyebrows soon. it’s driving me crazy.