hmm, have you tried oat milk before? i’m drinking a glass and it taste kinda funny at first but after awhile, it seems alright. :)

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i’m sad, i’m hardly really happy these days. i pulled on a face on at work, i frowned when things dont go my way. i’m never content and there i go, accusing people of being too greedy. what the hell is wrong. this is a bad year, i hope it goes quickly. i cant wait for new year, christmas, spending quality time doing quality things. i cant wait for big sales, buying things to fill up the emptiness inside. i cant wait to meet new people. i still got many things that i thought i must and will do but never get to it. like cycling, oh how much i wanna go cycling, feeling the breeze tickling the hair, whoosing smoothly down those slopes.

life is peaceful. i’m using work to make myself forget things. but the thought of quitting seems to pass through my mind everyday i’m at work. i’m tired, tired of whatever i’m doing now. :(

i need a lifesaver.

first day of school on monday!

nothing much, frankly. it was raining in the morning at 6am. went to meet the girls, went for our first class and we’re among the first few to reach; picked a country for our new assignment (project on the first day of school oh how wonderfulll) and i picked thailand haha; dismissed half hour earlier and we went brekkie at macs. omg i’m craving for hash brown with maple syrup nowwwww yummyyy.

and then buy books buy books buy books.

and yeah, plus catching up with my friends’ love lives while they catch up with my lack of one hahahahaha.

 

p.s. my outfit for the wedding is decided! :) i’m gonna wear black and gold yayy :) so excited!

nothing much to complain about next semester’s schedule because i get to have thursday off every week! ohhh joyyyy, i’m loving it :)

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damnnnnnnn.

i think i dont know how to establish good relationships with people, especially with my eldest sister. i dont know why, i just cant keep my temper in check with her. i’ve just grumble my frustration with her on the phone when she ask me how to pronounce a word. i said i had never heard of the word, and she still ask me if it is pronounced like this, like that. and i repeated that i dont know. and then i said, "arghh" and said bye. okay, now it sounds like i’m in the wrong and not patient enough. but excuse me? this is the 2nd time she called and the first time she said she called "for fun" and hang up. sorry hor, my patience is very limited thanks very much.

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someone need to teach me how to control my outrageous temper. :(

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

im seriously thinking now whats the reason i kept looking across at the you whenever you’re working.

 

 

and ahh, i think it’s because you looked abit like him. from far. i’m just refusing to make that connection.

damn you for looking like him.

lately, miscommunication with groupmates seems to make my temper incredibly hot and tears of frustration just fell uncontrollably. is it them or is it that i get angered very easily? i would like to know because feeling pissed every single time sucks bigbigtime. mouth set in a grim line, brows creased, train lines appeared, eyes smoking fire. hmmm. have you ever feel this way before? yeah, it’s so frustrating and i just wished i have a guy in our group. maybe i can communicate better huh.

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i wanna go shopping..!

just 2days ago, i went to meet with vette and qi after school, going around fep to hunt for hollywood secrets to do qi’s hair. and guess what! the shop isnt there anymore hahaha, yay for us ‘cause we dont wanna wait around for hours for her to do her hair! =x so we went shopping but didnt buy anything :( and we had a very cheesy lunch of pizza hut. i dont think i’ll ever step into that place again unless for their garlic bread and spicy wings! their pizzas are too terrifying for me.. *shudder*.

and then.. we went WS! :D neoprints and burger king..

ah, that pretty sums up the most exciting day i’m gonna have this week. unless i am going out on friday.

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nuh-ed today and i totally think we might as well be invisible there and let the doctors and teachers yak and yakkk about the same topic for what, 3 hours? they seriously keep repeating their conservations and i’m bored out of my mindddddddd. thank goodness, at least i get a free ride back. and the IT people there are terribly R.U.D.E! booooooooooo

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seriously, friends are such hypos sometimes. maybe cause i’m one too. oh yay.

 

p.s. school starts on monday!
p.s.s time-table out tomorrow!

明天，真不期待明天呀。。

终于又过了五天工了，作天的full shift，今天的morning shift，我真的要就此累挎了。今天早上还真不想起床。现在也很累！@_@

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你知道吗，有时候我总觉得自己是个非常恐怖的人！对不喜欢的人，就变得好two-faced。表面上好像在对你笑，心里却在不停地诅咒着你！打从几时开始，我的性格就变成如此扭曲了耶？有时候还真的讨厌这样的自己。。！

也许，我真的需要好好的检讨检讨。。哈

但，说实在的，另一方面，我觉得这样也没满好的。哦，我好自相矛盾喔。

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好希望，明天能好好的休息。但，这应该会是一场白日梦吧！唉。。

妈刚刚卖回来的叉烧饭，现在只省下在我右边旁的白色空盒子了。

来来来，这是最近我非常非常喜欢的一首歌！

其实你懂我

我到底是谁
在你心中占有怎样的地位
你不说清楚
你让我们的爱坠在七里雾

爱 很讨厌
总是忽近忽远的让人追
追半天 你连抱歉
一句抱歉也不给

我向前走 低着头 眼泪不停向后流
一直走 不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信 其实你懂我（其实你爱我）

我发誓千遍
我这一走你就无法挽回
虽然心会痛
总比受尽委屈还要更好过

我 等了等
脑海始终浮现你对我的好
好半天 你连Babe
一句安慰也不给

一前一后
你跟在我的背后沉默
Yeh……Yeh……Yeh……
前前 后后
希望你握住我的手
Yeh……Yeh……Yeh……
Wo……Wo……Wo……

我向前走 抬起头 擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走 不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我不想走 无法心不动

我向前走 抬起头 擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走 不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我仍相信 其实你懂我

好啦。。唉，四个小时后，我又要和bra见面了。。请多多指教啊。。

回到家里的感觉是如此地爽哪！

今天又是有好多好多的bra要tagged，因为明天又是sales了！真的不是怎么期待耶。。感觉上一定又累，而且sales的东西又丑啦。。

自从放假后，就发现少了很多关心自己的朋友，每天过着充满lingerie和vb.net的日子；除了一起作工和project group的伙伴们之外，几乎都没有特别和朋友吃吃饭，逛逛街，看看电影之类的。好无聊，又有那么一点点的小寂寞喔。每天放工后，在自己回家的路上总感觉非常的纳闷，心里空空的，陪在自己身边的也只有自己的影子。。

唉，算了，还是别想那么多去睡觉吧~~，还好明天有cat陪我！

前天，我去了maple clinic看皮肤。因为最近我的皮肤真的好严重喔！！每每看着镜中的我，都好想把镜子碎破掉！真的有那么严重请不要怀疑！到我都不想出门的地步了！感觉好悲伤。。我还问了医生可不可以开些药给我吃呢。。可是她说，暂时不要。。我的情况还不是很严重。是吗！为何我觉得很糟呢！！但没办法了。。好好用她开的药吧。。真希望会有很大的好转！！呵呵。。我还真贪心耶。。99块就这样和我说byebye了。。 哭泣中~

最近我都在忙着找一件像样又美丽的衣服穿去mingli的wedding。。可是，好难找咧！到现在只剩下一个礼拜多的26号，渐渐的逼近了。。而我还是没。衣。服。穿！ 哭泣中~

钱，钱，钱。 今天， 我又在一次的体验到这一个字的坏处！真的真的好坏。钱让人以为它可以买辛福 [虽然满正确的] 。不够钱的人就会去借。但，这些借钱的人，到底只有几个有能力把钱还清呢！在这个家里，每天都会证实了这个例子。

作天，很久没有动paintbrush的我，放工一回家就开始和老弟画画了。今天，他有画画考试呢！每一次问他：‘今天考得怎么样？’， 他总是嘿嘿的说：‘当然ok啦！！’真是拜给他了哈哈。。

一动paintbrush，我就开始好怀念好怀念以前苦命画画的日子！呵呵。。一支一支的毛笔，大大的canvas，一盒红蓝黄的acrylic paint。。和同学们一遍画，一遍彩，一遍说鬼故事或笑话的炎热的午后。。那时后真的很爽，虽然挺压力的。那是那种单纯的时光，要去那里找呢！

最近老是埋锁在工作里，埋到累，心总是想着，我到底还是不是学生啊?!

写华文真的好累！！ 我写了老半天。。突然间有不能写了，又花了几分种才把问题解决了！真的， 败给它了。。还好，我是聪明的！！：）

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最近，不是过得很好。 总是突然间心情不好，乱耍性子，喜欢摆着一副臭脸让人看得真的有点不爽！连我自己都想扁自己了。可是，情绪这种东西不是说能控制就怎么简单的，对不对？

每次我都不明白，为何有些人总是那么的乐观。不管遇到怎么样的错则都总是嘻皮笑脸的，真的有些欠扁！让人忌妒！让人发火！让人讨厌！让人羡慕！

我也想乐观，快快乐乐的生活着，无优无烦恼的，但是，说起来到是非常非常的容易啊！他们到底是怎样达成那种成度的呢？

今天晚上，我告诉自己，从明天开始，我也要学着用轻快的脚步，踏出那扇门！魔王！你走着瞧！！

已经有好几天没有blog了！不知为何，每次看到这空白的box就写不出半句来！。。

最近你过得好吗？真想问一问。。

我呀，每一天都在过着忙碌又没目标的生活，真的有点累呀呀呀!