the computer is making this funny murmuring and buzzing sound like every night and it’s getting really annoying. i missed those times where it’s so super fast that the screen just changes with each click. immediately. sigh! why does certain things always grow older and slower? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, there goes that sound again!

a few minutes ago, someone started knocking on our front door and then continued knocking on the bedroom’s window when no one answered. i peered through the hole and it’s a guy. then he started calling,’michelle.’ mom got kinda hysterical and shoo me off when i wanna opened and tell the guy off for scaring the shit out of us. she woke dad up and when dad went to open the door, the guy back off and said, ’sorry, got the wrong house.’ *(^#!@#! excuse me? that baka! i guessed mom was traumatised by the incident way back. i could understand, sighhhhhhh. bloody guy. please check if you got the correct unit number before knocking can?!

i went to make my specs finally today. this is prove that i’m an incredibly fussy and picky girl. this one cannot, that one cannot.. i really dont wanna change my specs; i loathe changes, but this time my degree had changed too much for me to stick to this old one. :( but it’s time i throw away this specs once and for all - i made it when g and i started going out. it’s as old as how long we’ll be together if it arent.. but i wont go that far to elaborate. and, it’s metal. :( i dislike metal ‘cause it makes me more nerdy than ever.. but plastic dont have the maroon colour that i want. i think the next time i wont go back there to make new specs, it’s time to explore other places yeahh! let’s hope i wont regret this new one.. it’s metal.!

in lab today, i went wikipedia and searched up on JK Rowling. and i’m surprised that the seventh book sypnosis is out! and you betcha i couldnt stopped reading about who died, who got killed etc. and i dont think i enjoy the ending. 19 years later? somehow, i like the idea of them going back to hogworts and still being young at the ending. but not having kids blah blahhhhh. :( fairytales forever! it sucks that the harry potter is the end already, i read it since i was, like secondary 1? mommy bought me my first book, yay :D it was a totally random moment; i was just looking for a book to read and this cover with a boy standing in front of a hogworts express train with a lightning-bolt scar across is forehead just seems so intriguing. and this begins my obsession with harry potter :)

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i dont really like it y’know, how girls seems to become so giggly and whatever-nots whenever their boyfriend says something that isnt really funny, but they’ll just laugh and giggle and giggle-giggle anyway. (okay, i’m allowed to get annoyed and bitched this out ‘cause i dont have a boyfriend so i got the right.) what’s up with this? it gets really annoying hello. okay i’m jealous wahahahaha. it’s like something the guy is doing that is incredibly stupid and irritating but their respective girlfriends will go, ‘heeeeheeeeheeeeheeeheeee, you’re so funny!/you’re uber cute!.’ ugh! so yeah, this is the power of lurrrrrveeeeee huh.

okay, enough of the little green monster act, addy, enoughhhhhh.

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aw, your smile melts my heart today, boy. the way your eyes fell over mine at the bus-stop and a grin just lifted from the corner of your lips and your eyes just crinkled up before you turned shyly away. i was on the phone and i wondered if i werent, will you come over and talk to me? will you? your boyish smile, imprinted in my mind till this very minute. alot of things i simply wonder, why is it not possible between us. i did the usual weighing of pros and cons and as usual, the pros always fell short.

i wonder why.

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right now i need to go put something on my face badly. i want the holidays, i want the holidays. school is driving us utterly insane. why does everyone expects so much from us and keep harping on ‘you guys know that if this project isnt finished, you all still have to come back during the holidays right?’ enough is enough okkayyy. dont have to repeat. we know and it’s unfair. all i know is, i’m stressed out by the deadline and all i wanna do tomorrow is to take MC and sleep till evening.

and one thing about school is i realize how everyone’s not being really real; we talk behind each other’s back whenever we disliked something about that person but we still smiled and laughed with that particular person we lashed about. is this contradicting anot, please teach me. i’m confused about what’s real and what’s not. do i ever have a true friendship that held no secrets?

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the world is so weird, i just wanna be haruhi and have tamaki by my side hahahaha. everything will be worth dying for then.