Lots of things been up this passed weeks and time seems to fly by in a whirl. Much thoughts needed to be penned down, much more feelings were triggered and so less time to blog them out. i love memories, good or bad, funny or heart-breaking, they made me think whenever i flipped back the odd old posts and i’m happy to say,’ah, this feeling is evolving, why arent i feeling like that anymore?’ or ‘omg, this feelings is still there ^%$^#$$@#! ‘ yeah. but often, before i could blog them out and stored them here, the feeling/thought has disappeared and i had lost it. i couldnt remember anymore. and i dont really like that.

and this blog feels so cold and empty today because it seems lacking in something. but what?

i’m happy to say that i’m quite happy being in my own company these days. it’s weird how i had grown customed to being alone. like, walking to the bus stop alone, shopping alone, just staring into the air and thinking about stuffs, blocking everything out. it isnt very fun i supposed; it just that it feels good and peaceful because i dont have to entertain people, making an effort to talk to them and feeling the miscomfit that i’m trying so hard, so so hard to make them happy, make them think i’m such a good entertainer or something like that. and then worrying that they dont really like being with me. if they had a choice, they wont be here, etc. 

like kiwi always says,"insecure or what?" haha!

AND..

transformers date on monday is a great success! :DD SUPERB MOVIE! FANTASTIC! AWESOMEEEEEEEE! just jas, hao and me(: we had nachos cheese and popcorn, finish by sprite ohh yummy. 5th row from the front oh but i shant complain. it’s great. the effects, the graphics, the visuals.. i got a shock a couple of times! jas and i loved bumblebee so much that we went to get bumblebee smiley charms to hang on our handphones! right now i’m trying to find awesome pictures to depict the movie but i cant find any thrilling ones! :( in another post maybe, when i got more energy to find hahaha. oh bumblebee yo! :D i think me thinks that i have alot of $. 3 movie tickets were my treat hahaha. oh no :(

i’m happy yesterday and now i cant wait for harry potter on saturday! movies made me hyper and happy and i cant describe the feeling. :))

tomorrow calls for evaluation at 230pm. happy not? ready not? excited not?

nope, nope, nopeeeee. i’m so stressed today that my head is in pain. so many things were shrieking at me, going,’do me first! meeeee! i’m more important!’ you know? you know?? it drives me crazy. plus the factttt that i’m not happy with.. okay it’s not good to say here. SIGHHHHH @#$@$@! i’m upset, pissed, angry, FRUSTRATEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. IT’S SUCH A ARGHHHHH RAHHH ARGHHHH FEELING YOU KNOW.

>:((

tomorrow tomorrow.

i’m spending muchies lately. oops!!!!! *slap self*

OMGOMG, MY NOSE FEELS SO CLEAN NOW THANKS TO BIORE BLACK PORE PACK. OH YAY OH YAYYYYYYYY.

tomorrow will be better; and i hope you will wake up feeling beautiful, girl.

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