come again, wednesday, goodbye and hello thursday.

1. my skin feels tight and yummy!
2. i currently have 3 mosquitos bites on my arm at the same area, some on my legs and one on my left hip. ITCHEEEE
3. everyone’s swooning about how great&fabulous transformers is, okay okay enough, I KNOWWWWW. monday come quickly! i think i’m in love with the transformers before i even watched it :( thanks, guys!
4. rented 200 pounds beauty but no time to watch it yet boohoowoo
5. lets pray and hope that kakak will grant me off on 14 july for Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix! tickets are booked already and i really reallyyyy wanna go!
6. i keep spending and buying and spending and in the end, i sat on the floor in the middle of the room, wondering where all those junk come from.
7. A*star coffee shop seriously has the most unique, pretty and nice-tasting toast ever! instead of the normal boring kaya butter, they heaps up blueberry or strawberry jams, peanut butter, milo powder along with honey stars, flooters, cocoa crunch, and other cereal! ohmygoodness, please pardon me while i drool now.
8. sometimes i wished i have blond hair or brown tumbling locks, taller build and lashes that dont need curling like those cacausians have, hahahaha
9. i absolutely love and adore sgsecrets. there’s nothing more realistic than that seriously. it makes me feel better that there are tons of people out there feeling the same way as i do. and that i’m not weird, unwanted, strange, alone as i thought i was. many of the secrets just spoke to me and my heart was screaming, "oh yesyes, this feeling!" in agreement. ohwells. ask me and i’ll probably find it hard to admit!
10. damn these bumps on my face. i just did a mask, and now, i’m going to wear this eye mask to sleep. i hate my flawful face, those scars, i hate these damn dark eye circles and deep eye bags whenever i laugh or smile, UGH. and these masks dont seem to help much. i’m so unhappy and disgusted!
11. right now, i got 3 books to finish, lucky me. :D A Place Called Here which i rented weeks ago is barely just passed the 2nd chapter, Jemina J is halfway through, and i just finished a chapter of In Her Shoes on the bus just now! :D
12. mdm ng is gonna come tomorrow, i knew it.
13. thanks to Mommy dear for helping us tidy the cupboard which deem as an impossible task until you sprinkle your Mommy magic on it :D
14. i wished i could go out with you, Mommy, just the two of us, shopping, eating, talking, laughing; and i realized i’ve forgotten when is the last time we did that?
15. i did miss you, friend, though i’m too thick-faced to mention anything but i remembered the times you&i went out together and and have a brilliant time and i wonder to myself, how come it doesnt happens anymore?
16. august 9th is coming which means sg’s bird-day which means pweetaye fireworks splashing through the dark dark sky and i had witnessed the last 2 fabulous fireworks displays the last 2 years. amazing, fantastic, lovely, heart-smashing, just just speechless. but this year, i can already feel the difference. boyfriends, commitments, how is it ever going to be possible? i would cry if i miss this one. i really would.
17. friend, i know how it feels, i really do. though many a time i hardly mentioned how dear you guys are to me, without having to speak it out aloud, you guys are always always in my heart. i thought about those times we spent together, laughing effortlessly, either at something dirty or just plain stupid, i remembered them. i missed them tons. the memories we built, the times we shared, those precious moments, are indescribable. the joy, even when we’re "suaning" one another, makes me feel contented. i got this feeling that no one else would ever make me feel the same way as you guys did, ever. but sometimes i do fear. memories become painful when the distance starting pulling us apart. when one of us dont feel the same way anymore, the bond feels broken and things felt awkward. i hoped this will never happen to us. but sometimes i’m scared to get too close ‘cause what if one of us doesnt feels the same way anymore?
18. i miss you; i thought about you today, how far you are away from me, how much i wanna see you, wanna catch a movie with you, wanna shared a dinner with you. to hear you talk and laugh right in front of me. i’ve pictured this scene countless and countless of times, but i think it’ll never happen ‘cause i knew you have given up hope on me.
19. i think i need to be stronger, to be more responsible, more lively because i’m feeling so dead right now.
20. i took off my specs for a brief moment this very night, after i climbed off the bus. the world suddenly seems much brighter because all i see are colours of red, green, yellow lights everywhere. any other things is a total blur. i think i kinda like seeing the world like that sometimes. in this way, i need not look into things too clearly, and this is when ignorance comes in. it’s good you know, to pretend once in a while, to see through things that you dont wanna know; the world is sometimes cruel, you cant deny.