hi, it’s a good day, world :D wild imagination, silly smiles, misses, music filling up the cool night air, and leaves were rustling in the background. thursday is just a good day - good sales that topped over 5000 and i’m proud to say i’m only responsible for the 500 of it =X, i had honey milk tea with jelly and lia treated me to a sugar donut, yummy! both lia and kakak got their hair cut and i was like, "wow" when i clapped my eyes over them, hahaha! lia’s had hers cut in a flyaway style and dyed it brown with green streaks! i totally admired the courage which i totally lacked. green hair, aye! she looked really striking at first sight but it just need some getting used to.. it actually looked weird at first though no way i’ll tell her that and hurt her feelings; i mean you normally dont do that do you? but after sometime of staring at her hair, i actually think it looks quite stylish :D nice on her! it makes me wanna pulled out my hair and do something about it.. and nahhh, i can NEVER imagine myself with green hair!

lunch was malay food yummmm, gosh everyday i must describe what i’ve eaten, musnt i? it sounds so boring :(! but my day was too dull to write in all glitter and glamour. it’s really really dull. :( work, school, and the pattern continues.. ARGH. moolahs are so frigging expensive. on a happier note, flora popped by to visit with her boyfriend :DD totally miss her! it’s like the old times.. (: i wished she come back, hahaha! ohwells. others got a bf to support them and i dont. bummerrrr.

sometimes, i think i’m really useless. i think i’m not a very good listener or a good advisor. when friends tell me their problems or called me to tell me what’s troubling them, i’m really useless and at loss for words. i dont know how to console them, make them feel better or what. what i can only do is to listen which is such a sickening and frustrating position to be in. why is it that i can never find the right words to say, to make them feel tons better, to tell them i’ll be with them all through it? why is it that after i hear their problems, it seems like my tongue is glued to the roof of my mouth and i’m clueless and speechless of what to say? i stammered which seems to make things worse. i’m frustrated and i hate this side of myself. it makes me so damn useless and ugh, I HATE IT! i’m such a damn lousy friend, useless too, and this feeling just sucks! tell me, being a good listener, what’s the use?

i feel so lost. >:(

somebody punch me please.

it’s a feeling so indescribable..

 

&& i miss you. your prescene is so very much missed.