Alrights. I actually intended to come home, showered, eat leftovers, and blogged longlong.

But then, I made a harsh decision to come online which results in me talking vigourously with 3 lovely friends. VIGOUROUSLY!! Meaning a real long chat, switching windows as fast as my fingers could possibly allows me. And now, my head is getting woozy, head spinning and eyes squinting.

Mommy says I’m too tired. She says I worked too much.

My friends watched me head straight to work almost everyday after school. They tried to cheer me up by saying I’ll have more money to spend.

I dont know. I dont know what will happen if I just carry on working like that; every weekend was devoted to work, at least 3 out of 5 weekdays I’m devoted to work too. So.. what’s left? On my off days I felt that I should go home and rest and sleep away, to have energy for work the next day; So, let’s celebrate. Because I officially have no life now. No social life, no fun hang-outs. Hey wait.. I have no life ever since I happily stepped into LS, thinking it’s my stairway to heaven aka, a bundle of cash. But then, as times go, it turn out very much like a hell. But of course I’m thankful that my friendships there that are definitely improving - Can you believe that Kiwi and I could have fun working together? We do now, in fact! Life’s crazy. Life’s.. unpredictable would be the right word.

There are so many things going through my mind right now. Stacks and stacks of to-do lists, layers and layers of thoughts meant to be sorted out before they drove me crazy. Why ah? Why it seems to be only me? I wished so much that I dont care and dont give a damn. But.. somehow, my personality seems to be fixed this way. I dont know to smile, to laugh, or to cry.. it all seems wrong.. somehow.

Sometimes it seems that I’m making my life complicated and not the other way round.

Why.. Why AH?